He did it Christmas night…….   Just a quick buy while we were last minute Xmas shopping so not the final ideal piece, but perfect for now.


Eventually we would like to custom make a collar with buttons instead of studs…… Gotta mean something hey?

So Sir and I have resumed this life style full force, so here i am again after a time away.  I am in for a full on caning tonight oh yer xxxxx

SLOwwwwww NO mOOOd

This past month has had me really not embracing the D/s lifestyle I just cannot find the sub in me at the minute. Doesn’t help that sir isn’t really being sir either.  Oh well I guess it just the ebb and flow “sigh”

When to not punish your submissive.

Tall, Dark and Dominant

When my dear kitten and I decided to enter into a D/s relationship, it took us both a few steps to adjust into…well, a new life almost.

We actually spent a few months training together, easing into things and finding what works before I literally crack that whip.

It might not come as easily to some, you know? You may be a natural submissive but your speech training…well, that will take time to perfect. How long depends on the individual but re-routing your brain may be no easy task.

The reason I bring this up is because I wanted to talk about the fact that a Dominant shouldn’t punish his or her submissive for making errors. Not in the beginning.

I believe this will just cause resentment later on, no matter how minor the sentencing is. Your submissive feels a great deal of pressure to follow your orders. They are…

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NEEDS…… What are they really????


I need to really really question myself and find out from all the crappety crap what I actually  need from this journey.

I think I want this I think I need that but really do I. I honestly have no idea.

I need Food and water……Do I need anything above that really?   I don’t think in the grand scheme of things that I do. I would survive but that’s all I would be doing.

So I guess my needs also includes spiritual sanity, such as love, companionship and excitement, which in turn means I also need fear, loneliness and boredom to truly appreciate the positive things.

EXCITEMENT is what gets me. Searching deep I am finding I am on the never ending hunt to experience the childhood exhilaration and all round total happiness. How easy I found it when younger, how just play hide and seek was the best thing ever. My young little body would hum and adrenalin would pump I would be buzzing.

A funny joke would have me laughing like a hyena and jumping up and down.  Oh I wish I could obtain that again so easily.

D/s is my way back to that, It really is the only time my body feels truly alive and zinging.

LOVE is a much simpler I have a Husdom and kids Love is abound.

FEAR comes in here too. For the kids for Sir and myself constant worries about small and large things and events that could happen.

COMPANIONSHIP is a constant work in progress, We can go weeks not really communicating heads buried on our phones, laptops and tablets. Then BOOM a D/s session and we are back.

BOREDOM this is my personal bug bear. I get bored even when doing things I enjoy. I have a constant urge to be starting new things (which hardly ever get completed) This gives Sir a bit of a challenge. I liked that last week but come on try something new haha.

So yeah needs…… I am still working that one out.


The BDSM test that’s flying round has actually given me something to blog, so yeah points for that, however I hate tests they can be played and taken knowing what outcome you want to hear.  I tried to be honest with this one but I want to be all the things it says I am.

Here are my results surprise surprise.

== Results from ==
100% Bondage Receiver
100% Submissive
96% Experimentalist
84% Masochist
80% Degradation Receiver
79% Exhibitionist
75% Girl/Boy
74% Voyeur
73% Brat
67% Primal (Prey)
66% Slave
43% Primal (Predator)
33% Switch
25% Non-monogamist
16% Bondage Giver
16% Vanilla
15% Brat Tamer
11% Pervert
9% Dominant
4% Daddy/Mommy
4% Degradation Giver
0% All-Rounder
0% Master/Mistress
0% Sadist
See my results online at


I have to recommend this book, so far part of a trilogy, although book 4 is due out very soon (I can’t wait).  I found the first book a little hard to take too but I am glad I carried on. Deeply disturbing and very to the bone the evolving love between the 2 main characters is raw, feral and honest. Its been along time since I have been carried away with a story but this book did just that.

Its not the best written book, as in spelling mistakes and grammatical errors, but gosh what journey I really cannot wait to find out how it all pans out 🙂


Nila Weaver’s family is indebted. Being the first born daughter, her life is forfeit to the first born son of the Hawks to pay for sins of ancestors past. The dark ages might have come and gone, but debts never leave. She has no choice in the matter.

She is no longer free.

Jethro Hawk receives Nila as an inheritance present on his twenty-ninth birthday. Her life is his until she’s paid off a debt that’s centuries old. He can do what he likes with her—nothing is out of bounds—she has to obey.

There are no rules. Only payments.

It’s the Little Things

The Sub Space Diaries

“I crave your mouth, your voice, your hair. Silent and starving, I prowl through the streets. Bread does not nourish me, dawn disrupts me, all day I hunt for the liquid measure of your steps …”

Pablo Neruda

I love men. Seriously, I’m a huge fan. I love their boyish charm, their wicked fantasies and how they can’t stop staring at my chest. I’m pretty sure they also know I adore them and they appreciate it.

But my favorite men are Doms. Doms are delicious. They elevate seduction to a whole new level. I, for one, am incredibly grateful for the effort.

The energy they exude is intoxicating. It can make a sub like me dizzy. Dominant energy is a living thing. I can’t speak for how a Dom feels submissive energy, but I’d like to think we can both sense that we were created for each other. It’s beautiful, really.

BDSM novels…

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Oopssyy Sir set me a blog challenge a few days ago, and attentive sub that I seem to be. I have totally forgotten what it was Sir asked me to write about.

So do I just write about what I want…… Or do I ask for a reminder????

Sorry Sir

Take that SIR !!!!!!!

imagesSo what’s the protocol for correcting Sir when he has made a huge cock up (ahem-mm)?

Today Sir forgot to pick up the youngest one from nursery. I was working when i received the call……. Not a happy buttonsz i can tell you.

Is it wrong to want to pull down Sir’s pants and whip out my belt and show him a little correction???????